Noticed I have a habit of updating irregularly to say the least... :D

Anyways heres a new writing for you guys. I'm not entirely happy with the title though, suggestions?

Drink Up

Take this moment
drink in the numbness
pull it close to you
let it enshroud a soul

So many to turn to
So many that cant help you
Living a life so hollow
I have fallen of the only path I can follow

Yearning for a selfish wish
One that I can't let be fulfilled
Anything else is a crime
yet sadly inevitable

My heart is drowning
inside this repressive fog
of shame and desire
to seize the forbidden fire

Embroiled in turmoil
despising my two minds
one of wanton lust and greed
another of loving others smiles

Like a consuming blaze
my need inflames
As I make this toast to loneliness
My reason fails with each and every sip

Will I endure?
When my hope has fallen
and vines of ears grasp at me
pulling my heart into a forest of sorrow

Can I stay the same?
Or will I succumb to change?
If so, who am I to be saved?